Thursday, August 23

Cardio Dreams

I've been feeling a bit down lately... a combination of stress, not enough sleep, new parenthood and some relationship strife. My moodiness has finally crept into my dreams, so now when I am finally able to sleep, I'm still being hounded by my insecurities.

I've been dreaming a lot of my ex-husband, my in-laws (current and former) and a myriad of other people who I've lost touch with over the years. Last night's dream culminated with someone I know telling me that I've let myself go... it was probably the least happy I've been upon waking in a very long time. Rather than bury my head under the blankets though, I got up and once the baby was fed, got into a 20 minute cardio routine I found on Hulu Plus.

I sweated my cupcakes off and got the day started with enough energy and gusto to attack a couple of chores before heading into work. It isn't always easy to turn those early morning blues around, but I think I did a pretty decent job of it.

Saturday, August 11

It's Aliiiive!

So, last I posted, I had finally made it through the first trimester of pregnancy. I was hopeful that things would get better (they didn't until half way through the 3rd trimester), and was looking forward to being active again.

Well, the baby arrived in May after a very long, excruciating labor. I was on restricted activities for 8 weeks, and finally at the end of July was able to go play paintball for the first time in almost a year! I survived the paintball OK, even though I had been very lethargic for nearly 11 months, and this week found a new Yoga program that I have been able to fit into my mornings three or four times this week.

I am back down to my pre-pregnancy weight already, which is a wonderful feeling. I'm doing my best to not focus on losing weight at this point because any restriction of my food intake seems to severely affect my ability to breastfeed, and we don't want that baby having issues feeding. Being active again after so many months stuck in bed or on the couch feels fantastic, and I am excited to be out in the world!